Took myself out on a date this afternoon, movies-popcorn-candy, the whole shebang. On my way to the theater, after a really shitty day, I had a meltdown in my truck. Questioning all the decisions I’ve made the last couple months and the reasons I made them. I don’t like where I am right now, I don’t like who I am right now. I’m trying to be patient and not rush anything, but it’s hard when all I really want to do is beg forgiveness from God and everyone else that I’ve dragged through the mud of my messy life. Still, I wait.
After my movie (Cinderella-great movie!) on my way home-I swear my truck is my refuge from the world-I realized that what I really need to do before anything else, is just get me together. Put back the pieces that I have either put aside or left carelessly lying around, then and only then, can I start making amends for the mess that I’ve made. Maybe my heart will be waiting on the other side.
So here’s to getting our shit together, friends!
Pray hard, and take it one step at a time. Keep your heart and your ears open to the things God has planned for your life!
A God Believing-messy-sinning-but still trying, crazy woman!